Post by Erica Durousseau on Nov 18, 2008 23:31:22 GMT -5
Well, we won again. I guess I should be happy? Well I can say this win was a downer. My tribe is getting to confident, too arrogant. They do not see that we may lose. We came in last on the first challenge. It can happen again. I am not one to boast so I don't like it when people do it. It's humiliating people who do not win and some people I can honestly say are trying so hard in this game. They just want to have it peaceful. It's because they care and are dedicated, not the their game but to their tribe, to themselves. I don't think Auki is one complete love tribe. No, far from it.
At least we are getting Ace back. I trust Ace, I like Ace. Ace is someone I feel safe with. I am not trying to be naive but I feel he got shafted last round. Why do we have Dave again? I don't know. He's not fitting in... but you know it's not like anyone does. I am glad to have a friend return.
This brings me to another problem; Michelle.
Michelle is trying to dictate things here. And if she wants to be the leader she shouldn't put people down. Whenever someone else has a different opinion, she contradicts them. She does things her way and it's getting under my skin. I am going to confine it but something about her just isn't right. The spirit isn't nice. It's vulgar. I don't like it.
At first the deal was the first time we go to tribal, Dave would go. Then it switched to Kim P, then Becky. All because of her, Michelle. Personally, we have nine members on the tribe. Michelle can go home. I mean, if she is going to be stubborn and not listen to anyone she might as well.
I mean, I am all for the tribe. I am not looking out for myself just yet. For all we know the merge may be with 10 people. It may be with 15. I don't know. That's why I need to take it one step at a time and not thing ahead. It would be really cool if we never did merge though. Just for the survival aspect.
I was in an alliance with Becky, BB & Michelle. Michelle left us dry and went with Matty & Alex. She is going to try to pull Ace over too and, that doesn't sit well with me. She can't just do that whenever she wants to. She doesn't have to align with everyone because it's going to come back and bite her. Personally, it's not my fault.
Becky is someone I can count on to cheer me up. She is just a nice person. I like seeing her around and I wouldn't want her to go. Everyday, I wake up and I feel in panic, Becky makes me feel comfortable. She is the glue to the tribe and with her gone, it would be a huge downer. I don't think booting Becky would be a smart thing.
Kim is someone that I am beginning to have negative opinions on. She never speaks to anyone apparently and that is not good strategy. I think she was upset that I said no to her alliance. When I didn't. I just said that I didn't trust Alex. Which I don't.
Alex just doesn't sit right with me. I can't read him well and I don't know where he is going. It's just not someone that I want to spend 39 days with. I'm sorry but no. He seems like a villain in disguise. But Kim was all over him. Why? Could there be something beneath him that is good? But I don't even think Kim is what she is made out to be. She tries to be nice but it's fake. I don't think she is being genuine. Neither is Alex. That's why they are the perfect two.
I am beginning to have second thoughts on BB. But this time it's in a positive way mainly because at first I thought BB was trying to play an ass but really, he's a nice guy. It's nice to talk to him. I can tell he is really having a fun time with the game. It makes me feel happy because I am having a fun time too.
Matty is someone who at first I thought I could trust but I am not sure about him. He seems nice but everyone does. He doesn't stand out and that's scary. Why aren't you standing out? Are you a wallflower or a schemer? Maybe I'm just paranoid but there is something fishy about Matty Whitmore.
Dave bugs me. He gets under my finger nails. I don't like the fact that he calls himself "Evel Dave" what are you trying to prove here, are you evil? Because we have enough of that. I am so sick people trying to make themselves be preceived of bad. I mean, this isn't the book of Genesis where evil triumphs over good. It's Survivor, not the bible.
Oh what mixed up emotions. And it's only the final twenty one.
[/color][/center]At least we are getting Ace back. I trust Ace, I like Ace. Ace is someone I feel safe with. I am not trying to be naive but I feel he got shafted last round. Why do we have Dave again? I don't know. He's not fitting in... but you know it's not like anyone does. I am glad to have a friend return.
This brings me to another problem; Michelle.
Michelle is trying to dictate things here. And if she wants to be the leader she shouldn't put people down. Whenever someone else has a different opinion, she contradicts them. She does things her way and it's getting under my skin. I am going to confine it but something about her just isn't right. The spirit isn't nice. It's vulgar. I don't like it.
At first the deal was the first time we go to tribal, Dave would go. Then it switched to Kim P, then Becky. All because of her, Michelle. Personally, we have nine members on the tribe. Michelle can go home. I mean, if she is going to be stubborn and not listen to anyone she might as well.
I mean, I am all for the tribe. I am not looking out for myself just yet. For all we know the merge may be with 10 people. It may be with 15. I don't know. That's why I need to take it one step at a time and not thing ahead. It would be really cool if we never did merge though. Just for the survival aspect.
I was in an alliance with Becky, BB & Michelle. Michelle left us dry and went with Matty & Alex. She is going to try to pull Ace over too and, that doesn't sit well with me. She can't just do that whenever she wants to. She doesn't have to align with everyone because it's going to come back and bite her. Personally, it's not my fault.
Becky is someone I can count on to cheer me up. She is just a nice person. I like seeing her around and I wouldn't want her to go. Everyday, I wake up and I feel in panic, Becky makes me feel comfortable. She is the glue to the tribe and with her gone, it would be a huge downer. I don't think booting Becky would be a smart thing.
Kim is someone that I am beginning to have negative opinions on. She never speaks to anyone apparently and that is not good strategy. I think she was upset that I said no to her alliance. When I didn't. I just said that I didn't trust Alex. Which I don't.
Alex just doesn't sit right with me. I can't read him well and I don't know where he is going. It's just not someone that I want to spend 39 days with. I'm sorry but no. He seems like a villain in disguise. But Kim was all over him. Why? Could there be something beneath him that is good? But I don't even think Kim is what she is made out to be. She tries to be nice but it's fake. I don't think she is being genuine. Neither is Alex. That's why they are the perfect two.
I am beginning to have second thoughts on BB. But this time it's in a positive way mainly because at first I thought BB was trying to play an ass but really, he's a nice guy. It's nice to talk to him. I can tell he is really having a fun time with the game. It makes me feel happy because I am having a fun time too.
Matty is someone who at first I thought I could trust but I am not sure about him. He seems nice but everyone does. He doesn't stand out and that's scary. Why aren't you standing out? Are you a wallflower or a schemer? Maybe I'm just paranoid but there is something fishy about Matty Whitmore.
Dave bugs me. He gets under my finger nails. I don't like the fact that he calls himself "Evel Dave" what are you trying to prove here, are you evil? Because we have enough of that. I am so sick people trying to make themselves be preceived of bad. I mean, this isn't the book of Genesis where evil triumphs over good. It's Survivor, not the bible.
Oh what mixed up emotions. And it's only the final twenty one.